Kaiho is a very sensitive, intuitive and sincere massage therapist. I received a tantric massage from him. He uses conscious and loving touch to connect and give attention and care that can offer a very pleasurable, but also healing experience. I felt like I entered a peaceful kingdom in the space he created. He started with an opening ritual that was very beautiful and felt like an offering to the divine inside me. It was very revealing and made me feel vulnerable instantly. But the safety and comfort he provided carried the vulnerability and I felt cared for. He led me through a meditation that was very sincere and connected us from the heart quickly. His presence, attention and focus touched me and helped me to relax and surrender.
My mind was still quite active during the first part of the massage and something held me back from fully entering a journey. When I turned around and was lying on my back, he said some words that reconnected me to my heart and instantly calmed my mind. His touch then became a waterfall of love and affection that softened my being. I entered a dream-like state in which I could not distinguish where his hands where, where my body started, where it ended, where he was, who he was, who I was; everything seemed to melt and merge. A rush of energy was flowing through my body and I felt it couldn’t be released as it was building up quickly. At one point everything started tingling and I had to sit up straight to calm down. I then released all energy in a laughing fit that lasted for a long time. I felt joy, ecstasy and was very high. He was able see what I needed and gave me the appropriate space to release and also grounded me when it was time and brought me back to earth. We continued the massage and I felt safer than before. With his help I managed to meet and experiment a little with my boundaries, my shame, my resistance and blockages to fully experience and relax into pleasure.
When he started doing my yoni massage and he went inside me, I felt sadness coming up. I felt a deep pain inside me and it was as if I could see the pain from the inside of my body. Simultaneously I saw images and flashes of a memory that I knew I had not experienced myself this life. I felt a distance and disconnection towards the emotion and had no conscious recollection, but my body was grieving and letting go of it. After this release, I felt numbness, confusion and disorientation. Kaiho then started rounding up the massage and lovingly ended it that helped me to integrate all that happened. I feel like Kaiho has an abundance of love and true Shiva qualities inside of him that he can connect to when doing massages. He can hold space in a genuine, safe and caring way. He has very pure intentions, a very comforting presence and a beautiful sense of touch.